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im revolking my trans identity :/

im revolking my trans identity :/

sheabutter0218

There is nothing wrong with that! I mean yes the feeling hurts. But I’ve found that as long as I can see and understand and respect myself then I don’t care if other people agree with my identity. I’ve only come out to my partner and a couple of friends, but as long as I can see myself as I am and not feel ashamed I don’t care how others refer to me


Cameron_Nakhoma

It sucks but im also tired of being treated like im making a big mistake or that im not really trans. So they can't talk someone out of doing something if their not doing it anymore


Professional-Stock-6

Shit sucks. I’m sorry you feel you have to do this, but I also understand. I’m kinda in the same boat and debating if this is what I need to do to get by.


Cameron_Nakhoma

For me its not just getting by its more or being invalidated or being told that im making a mistake but I hope that you get to live your true authentic self


Professional-Stock-6

Oh, I see. Thanks, I hope you do too.


_cryptic_cactus_

Same. My parents made it abundantly clear that they would never accept me if I was trans (I haven't even told them) and on top of the fact that I can't deal with trying to explain myself to everyone anymore, I don't want to lose my family because a part of me still really cares about them and they are the only people I really have in my life. So I'm cutting my losses. I know who I am and that's all that really matters I guess.


Paradoxa77

a lot of people give up on transition and come back to it later. you can do it. take all the time you need and get your situation good. there's always another shot down the road


Cameron_Nakhoma

Yea. I really want to medically transition but it jus seems simply impossible.


Paradoxa77

I hope that changes some day. Hold on, buddy


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Cameron_Nakhoma

Thanks this was actually helpful. I'm soon going to start T but until changes start to occur ill identify as female


VoidGray4

I feel the same man. It's just easier and if people see me as less than cause of that, oh well. It's hard on my mental health trying to pretend to be a cis female but it's actually a little harder for me to be trans and just straight up disrespected rn. One day I'll get to a place where I'll transition enough to feel comfortable but I'm not in a safe enough place to do that unfortunately. I'm still a guy and use he/him with those I can but with those I can't or during times I know I can't pass, I just can't make it a focus anymore, it's not good for my mental health.


Cameron_Nakhoma

Yea my mental health is at an all time low because if it. I'm not a woman and ik that but I'm not man enough to be seen as one so it gets hard trying to mitigate weather or not im either making a good decision or that ill never be good enough if I do make the decision. Its alot that goes into it especially when I don't have people supporting me or constantly tearing me down


lin0sh0enganmei

How old are you and how far along in your transition? I understand how you feel, and I’ve definitely been there. I’ve tried to repress my desires to transition before too but it never really goes away and life was pretty miserable trying to live as a female. I understand why you feel this way but also know that it’s not hopeless and it’s possible to reach a point in your life where you are seen as male and as a guy by the people around you.


Cameron_Nakhoma

Im 18 and I've been in and out of the closet. I tried to come out when I was younger and I was constantly shot down and told no but to myself I've been out since I could remember. I haven't started any medical transition things and I have socially transitioned but everytime it comes to like family they don't fully accept or they simply jus decline that 100%.


lin0sh0enganmei

Gotcha. It’s understandable, Im 18 also and I wasn’t able to transition at all because of unaccepting parents despite coming out years ago. I know what it feels like. Im about to start hrt soon, behind my parents back and although it hurts that they still don’t accept me as their son, it’s still possible to make progress. It’s never too late and you’re still young, do not give up hope if this is something you want to pursue. Good luck and my dms are always open if you want to talk.